-Some of you may or may not know that i just recently got dumped by someone whom i love very much. I will not lie, and no matter what she says i was one hundred percent faithful to her and that i feel so hurt that she would accuse me of lying and listen to the lies that her mother drilled into her head. Yes, i have lied to people, everybody lies, but i would never, never lie to someone i love, especially if i do not want to hurt them.
-And yes i know that you still think i'm lying Chase, i cannot and will not try to convince you otherwise, but my feelings for you... sigh.... i've expressed them a million times. I love you with every fiber of my being. I've loved you for seven months and that will not change. Like i've said, when you love someone, they stay in your heart forever, you never really stop loving them because you had, at one point in your life, given your heart to them. you had given your heart to see if you could trust them with your feelings. To see if you could trust that they'd love you back, but you see... I cannot see how you cannot believe that i love you. I've said it so many times that it just replays over and over and over again like a broken record. I have no reason to lie to you because i DO love you and i do not want to be without you but if we cannot be together then i won't push myself onto you. I will not convince you otherwise of your decision to not be with me, because if that is what you truly honestly want then i cannot stop you.
-But something does need to be said, you let your life be runned by your mom and that's not good for you. You give into her so easily and completely forget what it is that you want in life. I wanted the best for you, and i tried my hardest to make you feel important and loved and cared for. I really did, but i see now that it was not enough for you and i guess i can understand that. But don't ever believe your mom when she says that i never loved or cared for you because i do. I have no right to go against your wishes, but you need to know that i would've never done the things i did with you for attention. There is no point in it and your mother does not know me. She cannot tell you what my feelings are because she lies as well. Everyone lies and that is the cold hard truth. But it is terribly sad that your mother, whom does love you very much, would lie to like that. I know she thinks she's protecting you but sometimes a lie can hurt someone, and when you are older and have grown up a bit, you'll realize who was really there for you and who was not.
-and my auntie never talked to you hun. She talked to your mother, and she would never say that i am not bi because she knows me just as much as my mother knows me. I. AM. BI. that is the truth, but you on the otherhand hunny are not what you say you are. I've been this way since seventh grade but you.... You've been this way since August, and i know that your feelings, whatever they may be, are not lies but you cannot lie to yourself like that. If you are really bi and really do love me then i ask of you... don't hide it. I told you that our friends are here for both of us. And if you ever need me, then come to me. I will not push you away because i do not despise you. I care for you, and i can be your friend if that is what you wish.
-i... well its not that i don't wanna be with chase anymore. actually i will miss her tons and i'll be crying for the next week or so. but with the whole dating thing, if i ever date someone again then it'll be when i've moved on. i don't wanna stop being with chase but its for the best and i can't take b eing lied to constantly. so imma say that when i'm ready for someone new then i'll go out with someone else or not. i'm not saying that i'm waiting for chase, and i don't know if i'd ever take her back, but i love her. i really truly love her and nothing is going to change that, no matter how much she thinks i'm lying.